. On 2005 .

I joined Facebook in ...

2005.

I had to use my Peru State College email address because as Bestie Betsy said, "They only let college kids in." Bestie Betsy. She was still a sophomore ... she hadn't even yet begun law school. 

I was living in a shitty apartment, I was newly married, and it was way back when your status updates started with, "am" or "was" because your linked name always came first. 

We were babies. 

​Lord have mercy.

2005.

Fourteen years ago.

I was 22.

I've been to Australia, Rome, and to divorce court. I've gained a baby and lost a gall bladder. I dance in kitchens, listen to Indie music, and slow music, and country music. I dream about Texas and being a full time writer and bed and breakfasts.

I kiss a little boy goodnight, pray for a little boy during the day, and love a little boy every single second of every single day.

Oofta.

I have made some CHOICES in the last 14 years. Some good - some so gratifying that I carried them with me during the trying years.

Some were scalding, terrifying, and wrong.

Wrong.

I have been wrong.

But in the 14 years since I posted my first status update -

I have grown.

And THAT is what we're really all trying to gauge in the end anyway.

​xoxo, B.